Not again..... :(

"i'm such a coward for sending one of our man, please take this sword and end my life !"

I see buildings on fire, i needed someone to check it out, so i asked Titinius if he was brave enough to go ride down on his horse. and everyone knows my eyes aren't the best, so i made Pindarus check to see what was going on. he gave me terrible news, he said that Titinius was surrounded by a group of men with horses. they captured him. hes going to die, its all my fault, i was the coward for sending him, i should have ridden down there on my own, instead of sending one of my men,. this cant be happening. my best friend taken right before my eyes. So i call Pindarus over and cry to him. my best friend gone, its time for me to go, its time for Caesar to get revenge............i'm having Pindarus take the sword i stabbed Caesar with and stab me, hes gonna stab me right when i get out of my tent, so this will be my last blog, i lived a great life. wouldn't have changed a thing in it... i'll miss everyone.... my time has come.

I was born on this day, and i'll die on this day.

Me begging for one of my men to stab me, i don't want to deal with this anymore.

We just finished up our conversation with Antony and a few other people, i guess you can call it trash talking before our fight. but i might not even make it to the fight because todays my birthday and I've started to believe in all these omens. so i think it would be best to die today, to die on my birthday. so i see Brutus and maybe he'd want to do it with me, because i mean either way were going to die sooner or later and i'd rather be able to choose when i want to die instead of being captured and having to listen to everything Antony has to say. so i asked a few of my men and they all refuse. i guess it was a good thing because i wouldn't be here now if they have actually went through with it.

Shes Dead !

 

in shock, still in disbelieve shes dead. rip Portia :(

I cant believe it, i'm in shock, why did this have to happened to her, she was the best thing that ever happened to my best friend. she's dead, Portia's dead. once i heard the terrible news i almost wanted to break down and cry, i was more worked up about this then Brutus, his wifes dead and he's not even shook up about it. why does he do this ? hes so different around people, it's like the guy has to different personalities.

What did i do now ?

Brutus and i finishing up our stupid argument.

After we left, Brutus and i split up, we each got our army because we know its only a matter of time before Antony, Octavius, and Lepidus come after us. i arrived and Brutus's tent and i'm a little hot tempered at the time, and i just let all my anger out. i accused Brutus of wronging me. i was still pretty mad so i said that he has his men taking bribes, even though i was the one who said it in the letters, but i wasn't thinking at the time, i just wasn't myself, and thats why i got mad. not because i have anything against Brutus. but what got me even more mad was when Brutus accused me of taking bribes for myself, i was seriously so close to getting in a fight, thank god i controlled myself because i was about to lose it. but then i brought up the, "you hate me" and i know it was an immature thing to say, but it stopped the arguing and i just wanted Brutus to kill me, i gave him my sword and said stab me, i'm happy he didn't do it. i was in the right state of mind and just said whatever came to my mind. then Brutus said to put the dagger away and i did, we finally made up and stopped all this non-since and got back to what we were doing.

It's time to leave....

BAD IDEA ! why Brutus, why did you let him talk during the funeral ! 

While Brutus is about to give his speech i got and talk to a different group of people away from the funeral speech. but after i meet up with Brutus he fills me in on what just happened at the funeral. and Mark Antony turned everyone against us, we knew we had to flee from the city of Rome or we would be killed. Antony said to the crowd and Brutus knew he was using sarcasm in almost everything he said and the way the people were getting was scary. he practically started a riot. i knew Brutus should not have let Antony speak to the people. he only made it worse for us because Brutus had the people on our side for most of the day. but anyways we fled because its the only way we would survive.

Mark Antony, are you a friend ?

Mark Antony shaking our hands in a new friendship.

after the murdering of Caesar, Antony has a servant come to the scene because he thinks were assassinators now, when we only killed Caesar because we didn't want him in power. but soon after Antony appears in the capitol building and notices Caesar dead on the floor, he kneels and just stares at Caesar.... he then came down and has a word with myself and Brutus and he was just curious as to why we did such a thing to a great guy. we explained and i don't know what he was thinking, i don't know if he thought we were crazy or if we did the right thing, but for some odd reason he walked over and shook all of our hands, i think he finally came to his senses and realized Caesar wouldn't have been right.

I think he knows........

so i was at the capitol today and we were all by Caesar then Popillius comes to me wishing me luck? i didn't think anything of it at first, until i really thought it through, and i wondered how he knew about our plot. if he knows then theres other citizens out there that know. i was so nervous. so i went over to Brutus because he would know what to do, i mean he always knows whats right, and i trust him with everything i got.... then i noticed Popillius talking to Caesar. we were done, our plan was up. we didn't do it quick enough. until Brutus saw him smiling with Caesar, he didn't say anything, i was pretty surprised. i guess he was on our side... after that Metellus was begging to Caesar to let him return his brother back into the city of Rome, Caesar denies this, so then Brutus kneels in-front of Caesar also begging, rejected once again. so i thought maybe i can change his mind, didn't work... but we stopped trying that, Casca stabbed Caesar and we all followed, greatest feeling in my life, until i realized how great the consequence were.... whatever i'm happy i did it, i couldn't deal with him being in power.

Casca's such a fool......



Me talking to Casca about how Caesar will slave us,
oh and i was pouring outside.



It was so stormy tonight, and i know this is a sign for Caesar not being in power, even the Gods dont want him there, so its my job to get him out as soon as possible. But afterwards i met up with Casca, i was in such a bad mood and talking with Casca only made it worse. i freaked out at him, hes scared of Caesar. i would even kill myself if he got into power, because everyone knows we would be slaves under Caesar, i just wouldnt be able to take it. i was also having this meeting for everyone else who felt this way about Caesar and i invited Casca to come because i mean it doesnt hurt to have a few more people on my side. later on that night everyone left the meeting and i told everyone about how we needed Brutus on our side. and i know in time ill have him convinced.

I think this might work...



There i am, on the right, trying to convince Brutus about what i plan on doing.

 Just got back from my talk with Brutus. I think he belives me, I actually think he thinks im a true friend. I told him how honorable I was when really im just trying to get him on my side because I don't think Caesar should be our ruler. The guy can't even swim, I had to save his life. What makes him such a good leader? He's just like any of us, hes not that special, and with the help of Brutus on my side would make things a lot easier when it comes to murdering Caesar

Thought you were my friend Brutus?

Went down to the festivities to talk to Brutus. Before i got a chance to actually talk to him he weas on his way out. got him just in time. i asked him why he wouldnt stay, i kind of felt a little hurt about this. i thought he wasnt an actual friend, but then he apologized. i think he had something on his mind because he said to me that if he neglects me its because his mind is troubled. and i tried finding out whats up with him, so i brought up Caesar and how he felt about him being king. he also agreed and said to me that he was concerned about having him in power and thats when i knew i needed Brutus.